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Cuckolded by a 12 Year Old : 2: The Nanny Cam

The next couple of months were the best times of my sexual life, two days a week I was burying myself balls deep in Tammy’s 13 year old pussy. The best part of it was how enthusiastic she was about the entire thing. She couldn’t get enough of my cock and was always sending me naughty texts and emails about what she wanted to try next.

She would sputter and gag her way through trying to give me blowjobs. Our best success at that was when I would have her head hanging over the edge of the bed and I could shove nearly my entire cock down her throat. I would cum on her face in those cases, because she thought the taste was yucky.

I couldn’t get enough of cumming in her teen pussy though . She would squeal and squeal as I plugged away at her, which turned me on even more. So much so that I could get hard again quickly and give her another load. Friday’s were the best, as I would pick her up straight from school and get to fuck her in her private school uniform for a couple hours before sending her home

I can’t describe what it was like tapping her from behind while she was in that uniform. My hands gripping her dirty blonde curly tresses. Pounding into her tiny tight pussy from behind until I blew a load into it. Spanking her ass till it was red. It was the best.

Iwas finally moving on to get ready to fuck her in the ass, after showing her a lady cleans her ass out for it, when she got a call from her Mom wondering where she was. So we had to call it short

It was a Saturday afternoon when Tammy showed up to our house. Annie and my wife were out at equestrian practise, so that left me to amuse myself all day at home. I had been setting up nanny cams all around the house to spy on my housemaid who I was certain was stealing money and jewellery from us. I was hooking them all up to my PC locked up securely in my study.

Tammy had actually come over looking to see Annie, I reminded her that Annie was at equestrian practise all afternoon. Tammy just gave me a coy look twirling one of her curly blonde tresses and told me that she was sure we could find something to do to pass the time. I smiled back and ensured her we definitely could

I started taking up to the bedroom my wife, Liz and I shared but she told me she wanted to do it in Annie’s room. I thought this was hot and dirty but had to ask why, she told me it was a surprise and told me to get ready.

I went into Annie’s room, it was standard young teen fare. Posters on the wall. Pictures of the horses she liked. Her awards from school, The bed flowing with stuffed animals. I usually wasn’t in here very often, but had been so this morning to set up the nanny cams, which gave m e an idea. I rushed to my study and started recording , just so I could watch the action later privately.

Tammy was in Annie’s adjoining bathroom and told me to get naked and ready. I stripped out of my clothes and pushed some teddy bears out of the way and started stroking my already hard cock, keeping my eyes firmly on the bathroom door.

Tammy stepped out and I swear my dick got an inch harder. My thirteen year old tart was dressed in her school girl skirt and blouse which was open.What really turned me on was that she had slicked her hair with gel and stuck in ponytails, she was a spitting image for my own daughter Annie except for the curly spurts coming out of the ends.

“ Want to fuck me daddy? “ she said posing in the doorway

Tammy knew the ‘daddy’ talk turned me on to no end, dirty girl

“ Come suck my cock baby girl”, I told her

She crawled up onto my bed and nestled between my legs going straight away to nursing on my dick. I gripped her by the ponytails and start thrusting her head up and down on my shaft.

“ Yeah, that’s it suck Daddy’s big dick”

She went fervently to work on my cock with those instructions. I turned my head and smiled and nodded to the nanny cam hidden in the lamp on the dresser. This was awesome.

Tammy sucked on my dick for about ten minutes, but I was ready for more. I pulled her up my body and without even the pretense of foreplay and thrust Tammy onto my dick. She gasped at the sudden intrusion.

“ Daddy’s horny”, Tammy giggled getting into a rhythm on my dick

‘ Daddy loves fucking his dirty girl”

And fuck her I did, I gripped her tiny hips and thrust up into her snug little twat. She gave back as good as she got. We were bucking and sweating as she gasped and moaned through little cums, biting her lip when she did so. I rolled on top of her and started pounding her hard

“ Oh god, your penis is so good”, she groaned under me

“ Tell me what you want, tell me”, I commanded her

“ Fuck me Daddy , fuck me”

I pounded her furiously, her legs shot out to either side of me as I kept mashing into her pussy. Her pussy was so wet and tight that I struggled from blowing a load too quickly. She gasped subtly under me every time I would bury myself to the hilt in her

I spun her around on to her hands and knees and faced the nanny-cam. Getting up behind her I could slam away at her sweet 13 year old pussy and catch all the action going on in her face. Plus my own personal porn would be a real treat. I gave the camera a thumbs up and spanked her ass.

Getting close, I gripped her pigtails like handlebars and started really giving it to her. This forced her head back and pulled her hands up off the bed. I was getting to my chance to rag doll her just like I always do before I cum

“ Cum in me Daddy, cum in me”, she whimpered

I let go of of her hair and gripped her arms firmly behind her back and started roughly bottoming out in her twat as she whimpered. In a few minutes I spunked my load deep in her twat, once I stopped jizzing in her I pushed her off my dick. Grabbed her by her hair and had her clean my dick.

I was suggesting another round, but Liz and Annie would be home in less than half an hour, so I cleaned her up and sent her home. I showered and had thrown Annie’s cum stained bed sheets in the laundry when my wife and daughter came home

Liz gave me a casual distracted kiss on the cheek

“ Do anything exciting today honey”, my busty blonde wife asked casually

“ Nope, just some laundry and puttering in my study”
Liz just gave me a tired look, “ You really need to get a hobby honey, you’re turning into a boring middle aged man”

Oh I had a hobby, I certainly wasn’t going to tell her about it.

Annie gave me a big hug, but her body against mine made me flash to fucking her best friend in her own very bedroom. Life was good

I didn’t even get a chance to watch my movie that night, or Sunday because it was church then shopping, then dinner with my inlaws. I only got a chance to check that it was running from my PC and saved the video of me fucking Tammy in Annie’s bed.

Monday was spectacular, getting to work I received nothing but good news. There had been a shift in management a few months ago and my new boss Jim Henry was making waves. He was a former soldier that had headed up our security and had made nice with the CEO. His business acumen came to light and the big boss moved him into our division.

On the surface he could come across as intimidating, a tall very muscular black man with a shaved head and a no- nonsense approach ot business. But when you started talking to him on a personal level he was the nicest guy you could ever meet. He had become boss of my department, and as a reward to those who had helped him , he was forwarding promotions

The great news, was that I was promoted to vice-president of marketing which was our department. I only answered to Him Henry himself. It was going to be a huge pay bump but the hours also got crazier. He knew I could do it, and joked it gave him more time off to start practising golf. So I found myself now covering his afternoons off, which was fine because I could occassionaly delegate and take afternoons off to fuck my hooker Cindy and pick up Tammy when I could convince her to skip school.

I fucked Cindy that Wednesday in the ass as a reward to myself for my huge success, and fucked Tammy in the same hotel room the next day. It was a no tell motel which even let Tammy get our room no questions asked.

My wife Liz was thrilled of course, and we had a big dinner that Friday night with Jim Henry and his wife as well. Annie even came though she seemed a bit distant, but she also managed to sneak a sip of wine. Jim Henry’s wife Trish was a wonderful woman herself, a stunning Ethiopian woman who had become a business lawyer in the US.

Jim Henry had to take a call from the boss and excused himself from the table, a few minutes later my wife Liz also got a call from her boutique and had to step outside as well. In retrospect I should have figured out what was happening when they both wandered in from their calls half an hour later and Liz’ hair was a bit messy. But Jim Henry’s wife Alicia was keeping me spell bound.

We got home late and I was raring to go, hell I was going to give Liz a good once over, which would have been a staggering second time in a month. But she complained that the wine had gone to her head and she just wanted a good nights sleep. Horned up I went to my study to watch my scene with Tammy

I put on my headphones, turned down the lights and got behind the desk. First things first though, I decided to scan through the last couple days of filming to see if our maid was actually robbing us blind.

It was mostly bland cleaning and running back and forth at high speeds of the maid puttering around the house. I slowed down a few times to see if she was actually lifting anything> I was about to call it a night and get to wanking when I came to yesterday afternoon’s video.

Liz had come unexpectedly early , around noon it seemed and dismissed the maid, the fast forward zoomed and she was suddenly up in our bedroom. She unrobed and got on the bed and start diddling herself.

This was new. So I stopped to see what she was up to and put it on normal speed. She was rubbing her clit on the bed when the phone on the nightstand started to ring. I turned up the volume to pick up the conversation, I had called her yesterday I was wondering if she was masturbating when I talke d to her.

“ Hi sexy man, you going to come over and fuck me?”, my busty blonde wife said

My heart sank, she never said that to me. In fact she never said anything like to me.

“ No, he’s out fucking one of his whores again, you don’t have to worry about him showing up”

Holy shit, she knew I was fucking around. A knot in my stomach began to grow, just how much did she know, did she know I was fucking Tammy as well. This was bad.

“ Exactly,” Liz said agreeing with something, “ and that pussy is yours anytime you want it”

I gulped, it was clear she had been fucking who ever this was for awhile now. I guess I couldn’t complain too much, I was fucking around, why couldn’t she. But I was also offended, she was my ife she should only fucking me.

She hung up and started diddling on the bed again with a smile on her face. I actually found myself aroused at this, I was seeing an aspect to her I hadn’t seen since college. I was stroking watching her jill herself off. Three of her cums later, I was about to shoot when the action on the screen changed

My boss, Jim Henry entered the bedroom. My eyes bugged out. Liz just spread her naked toned thighs wide at him and smiled wickedly. Jim walked up to the foot of the bed and casually began to take of his clothes.

“ My husband is very grateful for his promotion”, Liz said crawling slowly on all fours to the foot of the bed.

“ He better,” Jim said loosening his tie “ his ass kissing was getting on my nerves”

Ass kissing? My boss just brushed me off as a sycophant and he was fucking my wife! How dare he!

Jim unzipped his pants and out popped his dick in my wife’s face. He was fucking huge. I was always proud of the girth of my 7 incher, but Jim had a monster. He had at least a few inches on me and was nearly as thick as a coke can. Liz bent her head down and started slurping away at his chocolate stick.

“ Damn you have a talented mouth, your husband is really missing out” , Jim said still undressing

My wife Liz popped her head off his dick for a minute to say, “ Let him have his whores, I’ve got his big dicked boss”

They both laughed and Liz went back to work sucking on his huge dick. Jim put a hand on the back of her head as in ownership and helped guide her back and forth. All the whilst stepping out of his clothes entirely. He was tall and ripped, muscles on muscles. I couldn’t kick this guy’s ass in a wet dream.

My hungrily slurped on his big dick while my boss leaned over and started fingering my wife’s pussy through her backside. I had never seen her so hungry for a dick in my life, she was absolutely worshipping it. She haer lips and tongue up and down its very long dimensions from tip to balls. Even as a college girl I couldn’t remember her being this excited.

Her phone rang again and she reached over and grabbed it and put it to her. All without taking a break from sucking on Jim’s mighty beast.

“ Hey baby, how’s the big job today?” she asked sweetly into the phone

That was me! This was when I was calling her before checking into the hotel room to fuck Cindy in the ass. She continued her chat with me all at the same time continuing to worship Jims big dick.

“ That’s great honey”, she said then moved the phone away to slurp sloppily on Jim’s knob, “ don’t work yourself too hard”

Liz then rolled away and lay on her back on the bed and spread her thighs wide. She crooked a finger at Jim and beckoned him between her toned thighs. Jim crawled up between them , his big dick swinging like a black mace at my wife’s crotch.

“ I can’t talk too much longer honey, something really big has come up” she said winking at Jim and stroking his dick.

She lay back and started rubbing his fat cockhead against her clit, he start playing with her tits rubbing her nipples

“ It’s going to be a long and hard day here at the boutique” she smiled at him

Then suddenly Jim gripped her thighs and pushed his big dick deep into my wife’s pussy. Her mouth stretched wide in a big O, then she bit her lip hard. He began to thrust into her, and she put a hand to his crotch to get him to slow down.

“ Sorry darling, have to go” Liz said hanging up like she often does.

Jim pused her hand away and began thrusting hard back into her.

“ Bad boy, don’t you want to eat my pussy?”, she said smiling wickedly

“I’d rather have my wife do that”, Jim said gripping her thighs

“ I haven’t agreed to a threesome yet”, Liz said

“ Yet.” Jim underlined.

Jim was trying to get my wife Liz into a threesome with his wife Alicia, I could hardly believe my ears, my sweet as candy wife was debating getting her pussy eaten out by another woman. I found myself getting aroused at the thought, and to make things worse I was getting aroused watching my boss fuck my wife.

And fuck her he did, he started slow easing his giant cock into my wife’s pussy. Every time he would push another inch into her she would gasp. He would slowly with draw and then push back adding another inch of his huge meat into her. Eventually he was balls deep in her.

“ Oh god, I love your huge dick”, she moaned underneath him

“ Better then your husband?”, he gloated to her

“ Fuck yes, he’s not even half the man you are”

I was humiliated and turned on all at the same time. There was no way I could compete with this man. He was my boss and I owed my continuing employment to him. He was fucking my wife, but I couldn’t complain or the truth about my whores would come out. All I could do is watch.

He would then pull out till his cock head was barely penetrating her and she would whimper and beg and plead for him to put it back in her. She literally begged him to put his cock in her. It was humiliating and hot all at the same time. I felt myself getting hard

He alpha male ravaged her after she begged. He slammed deep into her and started power-fucking her. She howled as this monster cock buried itself balls deep into her over and over again. She gripped his ass with her hands and kept pulling my boss into her.

“ I LOVE YOUR BIG BLACK DICK”, my wife Liz howled under his poundings

I started stroking myself to this display at wantoness from my wife. It was my own personal porn show.

He ravaged her mercilessly, he rolled her over onto her hands and knees and started fucking her from behind. Her mouth was slack open in a big ‘O” as he slammed into her behind. Her ass jiggled with each thrust and her tits swung back and forth furiously. Jim pokerfaced her though another screaming orgasm on her part, she gripped the sheets and dug her fingers hard into the sheets as she came like a woman possessed.

“ Lube, where’s your lube?” , Jim asked spanking her ass.

“ Nightstand, “ she managed to gasp out as he eased up on her.

I never knew she had lube in her nightstand, then again I had no idea of a lot things in her life apparently. He took out a bottle of lube and and pulled his dick out of her. She whimpered and begged him to fuck her some more. All I could do is stroke myself fervently.

He lubed up his big dick and then pulled her back to him. He slowly then pushed himself into her again

“ Fuck, your dick is so big and my ass is so small”

“Don’t worry bitch, it’s always fits eventually”

He was going to fuck her ass? I had never fucked my wife in the ass. Ever. She thought it was dirty and now she was freely giving it up to my boss. And she had been doing it for some time it seemed. I couldn’t believe it. I had to slow down my beating off as I felt I was getting close to cumming just by that very thought.

Liz grabbed a pillow and bit into it as Jim pushed his giant chocolate meat into her backdoor. This went on for about a half a minute as he sank into her millimetre by glorious millimetre until he was balls deep in her rectum.. Liz was grunting into her pillow and reached back between her thighs to diddle herself. When he was all the way into her Jim spanked her ass and she let out a little yelp.

He began to fuck her in the ass slowly at first letting her get used to his girth in her. Then he began to pick up the pace until he was slamming hard into her ass. Every few thrusts he would spank her ass to which would elicit another yelp from her.

Jim grabbed my wife by the hair and pull ed her back using her blonde tresses as a tether and began to power fuck her ass. She was pulled up to him but she continued playing her with her clit. I could easily see his huge dick from this angle as he penetrated my innocent as pie wife’s ass. And she loved it

She howled through several orgasm as he anally violated her, grabbing her big tits in his big hands as balance. At the end her head rolled back and she stiffened and even squirted on the bed beneath her. I had never seen a woman squirt in my entire life, least of all from my wife.
He then pulled out and pushed her onto the bed on her back. He straddled he face and jacked off towards her open mouth. She stuck her tongue out as he did so.

Then he started jazzing all over my wife’s face, she hungrily tried catching his cum with her tongue, but there was so much cum. He kept spurting over and over her face. All over her lips, he chin, her nose, her forehead and even into her hair. This set me off to and my meager spun load dribbled over my hand.

When he finished cumming he stuck his bog tool in my wife’s mouth and she sucked on it like a pacifier, trying to milk out the last bit of jizz with her lips. It was so fucking hot.

When he was done , my boss got off the bed and started dressing. Liz just lay on the bad panting heavily, her body slicked with sweat. She was nearly glowing and looked like a woman thoroughly sexually satisfied, something I had never been able to do.

“ See you tomorrow at dinner”, Jim said as he left

“Mmmmmmm so looking forward to it”, she purred from the bed.

She lay there for another 15 minutes or so in the afterglow, then showered and washed the bedding. Just in time for me to get home from fucking Cindy the hooker. Cindy, a woman I had to pay to have sex never came like that, even if she ever did and wasn’t just faking it.

I turned off the computer and sat there stunned. I was confused about how I felt. Humiliated at how my boss gave me a promotion just to spend time fucking my wife. My wife knowing I was fucking prostitutes. How my boss had fucked my wife in the ass and into complete sexual submission. And the worst part about how turned I was about it

I turned the computer back on and turned the nanny cam back on to take a look at my wife. I had to see that woman in the bed I had seen her fuck another man. Had to see her without seeing her, I don’t if I could walk into our bedroom now. The cam was running on real time and I expected her to be asleep.

She was in bed on the phone, so I turned up the volume

“ You bad boy, fucking me in the ass in the alley tonight”, she said into the phone

Holy fuck, that’s why she came back with her hair messed. Jim had been fucking my wife during their “ phone calls”. I was such a fool.

“ Yeah, he wanted to fuck when we got home, but I am so sore from these last two days”, she giggled.

How humiliating.

“Of course, tell her that I’m wanting that threesome now, it’s the least I could do for having her put up with my husbands boring dinner conversation”

Jim’s wife knew! She was covering for them fucking by listening to me. Oh god, this was horrible. And shamefully turned me on.

“ Good night baby, my sire ass already misses you”, she said hanging up.

I sat there dejected, humiliated and aroused in the study for another half hour before making my way to bed. Liz was sleeping with a little smile on her face which I had only noticed in the last couple months. I always assumed it was because her boutique was picking up, but it was really the face of a woman satisfied

I eventually drifted off to sleep wondering what to do next. Little did I know by the end of the next week, my fate was sealed


Carnival and Masque.

"'Your jesters weep behind their masks, and it is possible that those who seem to you priests have their true faces distorted with the joy of deceiving you. And you yourself, O King in the Golden Mask, who knows if you are not hideous under your adornments?'"

-Marcel Schwob, "The King in the Golden Mask"


“In truth, I often wonder what people look like under their masks.”

As she said it Portia was grateful that her own mask hid her blushing face, and she pushed against it to reassure herself it was still there, covering her from chin to forehead. Her skirts brushed the marble floor of the nave as she walked and kept her eyes on the tiles. The masks of the gods stared down from the cathedral walls.

“Well," said Father Marlowe, "there’s little enough sin in that."

“But isn’t it the same as lust?” said Portia. “The gods say that to want to see someone’s unmasked face is the same as actually trying to see it.”

“But the gods also say that to deny our human failings is to try to supplant them,” said Father Marlowe. His mask was a chubby, smiling face of gold, with curling hair at the temples. She noticed that, as he’d gained weight with age, he’d taken to masks that portrayed chubby cheeks and double chins to match his girth. The observation made her uncomfortable for some reason. The cathedral was empty except for they two, and they were heading toward the courtyard and then to the street, chatting as they usually did after her weekly confession.

“The gods give us sin to remind us of our place," Father Marlowe continued. "When you wish to see your husband without his mask, that is a lesson to you from the gods, and you should heed it.”

Portia’s steps faltered. “How did you know it was my husband’s face I was thinking of?” she said.

Father Marlowe’s belly shook with laughter. “Because you are a woman, and any woman would wonder about her husband‘s face after so many years of marriage. In truth, when my beloved Helen was alive I sometimes found myself dreaming about what her unmasked face might look like. Quite wicked of me, but I am as human as anyone else.”

They were outside now, walking beside the statues of the masked gods in the courtyard, the spires and masked gargoyles of the cathedral behind them.

“All the same Father, I wish I could rid myself of these thoughts,” said Portia.

“Well, there are times when I think we are fortunate to have our human failings," said Father Marlowe. "Tomorrow is the Hallowmas carnival, after all, and what would we do at carnival time if not sin?” The priest’s voice was tinged with mischief.

“I suppose so,” said Portia.

“The word ‘carnival’ means ’Farewell to the flesh,’" Father Marlowe continued. "We are creatures of flesh, Portia, and Hallowmas reminds us of that. You know, carnivals used to be very different, when I was a boy. Back then we still practiced animal sacrifice.”

Portia gasped. “No!”

Father Marlowe nodded. “It was a different time, and long ago." He patted her arm, once. The crowd on the street flowed in two directions around them. Father Marlowe’s grinning mask glittered in the late-noon sun. “I always enjoy our discussions, Portia. I look forward to seeing you again. Meanwhile, try to forget about your doubts tomorrow. And try to forget about your guilt too, if you can.”

“Yes, Father,” said Portia, bowing her head again. They parted ways. Throngs of people moved around Portia, as if she were a stone in a stream. There was an endless procession of gaudy masks and expensive clothes. Bright colors were in fashion in the high quarter this year, and a kaleidoscope of scarlets, azures, violets, beryls, golds and tangerines fluttered by, the men in their short robes and long capes, the women in their long dresses and shawls. Masks were of gold and silver and ivory, accented by jewels and pearls and gilding, as if the members of the upper crust were trying to outdo the gilt framework of the city's soaring towers and graceful bridges and broad pavilions. Portia straightened her own plain dress and shawl and her simple white mask, wondering how these people could dare flout such excess in the eyes of the gods. Then she reminded herself that it was the gods’ place to assess people’s sins and not hers, and muttered an apologetic prayer.

The Great Bridge that tied the two halves of the city was full of peddler’s carts and wealthy merchants meeting for the day's last business. Little enough surprise to see that the maskwrights were all out with their wagons and carts, displaying their most audacious wares in anticipation of the post-Hallowmas buying spree. It seemed that animal masks would be back in fashion this year. Portia paused to look at a gold one in the shape of a dove. It was too showy to be proper, of course, but she couldn’t help but look at it, and even to reach out for it, just for a moment, wondering if—

“It’s beautiful, isn’t it?” said the woman next to her. Portia snatched her hand back. It was Beatrice, the count’s wife; Portia recognized her blue and purple mask. No two masks ever sold could be exactly alike, of course; that was why maskwrighting was such a demanding trade.

“I was looking at the very same one,” Beatrice continued, touching the dove mask with a satin-gloved hand. “But of course it’s always so hard to choose what to wear for next season. What a burden such things are.”

Beatrice was standing much closer than Portia would have liked. “I suppose it’s nice,” Portia said, trying not to sound too interested.

“It would suit you,” said Beatrice.

Portia’s cheeks burned. “Perhaps,” she said, again keeping her tone neutral.

“It’s high time I got rid of this old thing,” said Beatrice, gesturing to her face. “If only we were permitted more than one…”

“That would be a sin,” said Portia, automatically.

“Yes, yes,” said Beatrice, much more lightly than Portia liked. “Imagine if someone had more than one mask. No one would ever know who they were. They could just put the new mask on and—”

“Become a different person entirely.”

Beatrice stopped. “Yes,” she said, and then silence stretched between them. Portia started to squirm. “Well,” said Beatrice, “it really doesn’t matter. The eyes of the gods are on us at all times, except on Hallowmas. They would know if we tried to cheat them by changing masks. That's what Father Marlowe says."

“Quite right,” said Portia.

“I do wonder sometimes what he gets up to when the gods eyes are off him. Don’t you?”

Portia started, but if Beatrice noticed she said nothing. She bought the dove mask, then invited Portia to dinner with the count after the carnival. “And bring Cassius too, of course,” she said. Portia accepted, chiefly to be gracious, and regretted dawdling near the vendor the whole way home.

She arrived just as the gardening staff was leaving to escape the chiding she had been meaning to give them all week about the rose bushes. The kitchen staff had delayed dinner twice while waiting for her to return, and the maids were late leaving because they had to wait for her to come home so they could receive their wages early, since they would not be on duty during the carnival. After she set the house in order Portia went to the east sitting room, where she found Alexander on the chaise lounge with his books spread in front of him. He bowed to her and said “Hello, Mother,” before consenting to be embraced. His eyes were bright blue behind his mask; he almost never seemed to blink.

“Hello, darling. Where is your sister?” said Portia.

“Here, Mummy!” said Octavia. Her voice came from behind the curtains around the bay windows, where Portia found her sitting on the window ledge and looking out over the gardens.

“Treasure, what are you doing in there?” Portia said as Octavia ran to her side, pigtails and curls bobbing around her peach-colored mask speckled with stars.

“I was watching the gardeners, Mummy,” Octavia said. “And I was listening to them. They were talking about the carnival. It’s tomorrow, isn’t it Mummy?”

“Yes darling,” said Portia. Secretly, she frowned; she hoped Octavia hadn’t overheard anything off-color. She would have to tell the garden staff to watch their language. Just another thing to get after them about.

Portia relaxed on the chaise lounge opposite Alexander, supposedly working on her embroidery but rather just letting it sit in her lap while she looked out the windows. Octavia curled up around her knees, lightly napping, and Alexander sat with his books, mumbling the words to himself as he read each verse over and over. Portia watched him at work, wanting to tell him how proud she was of him and but afraid to break his concentration. With as hard as he’d been studying the texts, she had hopes he’d set his aims on being a priest one day. It would do well to finally have a clergyman in the family. But she had not yet asked Alexander what his intentions were, and he had not yet volunteered anything, simply sitting with his unblinking blue eyes behind his mask and watching her, always watching her.

It was another hour before Cassius arrived home. Octavia leapt off of Portia’s lap and threw her arms around her father’s knees. Cassius picked her up and bounced her in his arms before handing her back to Portia. Alexander brushed the lint off his robes before greeting Cassius with a respectful nod and half-bow. Portia shifted Octavia in his arms so that he could embrace her, laying his brow against hers for just one second before pulling away.

“Darling,” said Portia, “it’s so wonderful that you’re home.”

“It’s the last day of the tenth month, Daddy," said Octavia. “Do you know what that means? Tomorrow is Hallowmas!”

“Is it?” said Cassius, feigning surprise. “Do you know anything about this?” he said to Portia, shaking his head as if bewildered. Octavia giggled. “And what would a very little girl like you know about carnivals?” he continued, his tone halfway between teasing and chiding.

“Alexander told me about it,” said Octavia.

“Did he?” said Cassius, turning to his son. Cassius' mask was slate-grey and bearded, with great black holes for his eyes. The set of the mouth was passive but often appeared to be frowning when his voice and body language made his displeasure clear.

“She asked,” said Alexander, not flinching from his father’s gaze. “It’s one of our most important holy days; it wouldn’t do to keep her ignorant of it.”

“I suppose,” said Cassius, his tone measured and even.

“We can discuss this after dinner,” said Portia. She had just noticed one of the wait staff standing in the doorway. They were seated in the dining hall, each of the four of them secured in their own chair back to back to back, each facing a different wall to ensure that they could not accidentally glimpse one another’s faces while eating. The staff laid out dinner and then beat a hasty retreat. Once alone and safely looking away, each family member raised his or her mask high enough to dine comfortably. Portia inhaled the scent of roast duck and realized she had no eaten all day. She was famished, but had only just this moment become aware of it.

Cassius talked a bit about his day in the Senate, and then Octavia would not stop asking questions about Hallowmas. “Mummy, why do we go unmasked on Hallowmas when to take off your mask is the greatest sin?”

“Because to go unmasked for a day is to remember why we must be masked on all other days,” said Portia. She heard Alexander mouthing the words along with her.

“Why is it such an important holy day?” asked Octavia.

“Because it’s when we conduct our most important rites and mysteries,” said Portia.

“What are the rites and mysteries?” said Octavia.

“Mostly drinking and fornicating,” said Alexander.

“Alexander!” said Cassius.

Portia heard Alexander shrug his shoulders. "That's what the help said."

"Which of them?" said Cassius. Alexander shrugged again.

"I can't remember now."

Portia frowned, and her appetite died.

That night the children went to their separate beds, and Portia shared a quiet moment with Cassius in the hall before they parted to their own rooms. He laid his brow on hers and she felt the hard line of his body through his clothes. A flicker of heat flared inside of her, but she tamped it down; the night before Hallowmas was a night for discipline and self-control.

“I’ll be at the North Gate tomorrow,” Cassius said.

“And I’ll be at the Great Bridge,” she replied. They had to know where each other would be so that they did not end up meeting by accident. In theory, one would never recognize an unmasked loved one, but of course, she knew every single part of Cassius’ body except his face. She’d heard horror stories about wives who accidentally recognized their husband’s birthmarks or scars during Hallowmas but too late not to have seen their faces. How awful, she thought, to look at your husband’s mask every day after and know what the real face underneath was like. Awful, and yet she could not stop thinking about it…

They parted. Portia paused by Alexander’s door, wondering if he was still awake and if he had overheard them. They had stopped by his door and spoken loudly on purpose, so that he too would know to avoid the places they would be. Teenagers were not allowed to take part in the festivities, but Portia was not so naïve as to think a boy Alexander’s age wouldn't sneak out anyway. And what of Octavia, Portia wondered? How many more years until she’s out in the streets, face naked for all to see, drinking the gods' wine and inviting men (or women?) to enjoy the pleasures of the flesh in the wayside gardens?

Portia closed her door and locked it. She undressed in the dark and laid her mask on the nightstand. Before bed, she ran her fingers over her exposed face, feeling the lines of her cheekbones, her nose, her brow, her lips. Her natural face was so unlike her. She lay on her thin mattress and recited orisons to herself until she fell asleep. It didn’t take long.


Portia woke with a feeling of unease. She reached for her mask, but no, not today, she reminded herself. Instead she sat up and ran her hands over her horribly bare face again. She listened; the house was completely silent; no children, no servants, no Cassius. She was the last one up and the last one out. Good.

Just walking down the halls unmasked made her feel ill. She was terrified at the thought of some stray, late-rising servant appearing, but there was no one. She went to the window and peeked through the curtains: There were people on the streets. Not many, as the crowds would gather in the public squares and the feast halls, but still she could see them. They were drinking and laughing and some even dancing, all of them dressed in costumes and all of them, of course, unmasked. How awful people's faces are, Portia thought, how terrible the way they move. She watched as a couple of girls, barely out of their teens, stole grapes off the vines covering her walls and ate them one by one, laughing. The way their mouths moved up and down seemed obscene. She closed the curtains.

She wanted to lock herself in, but of course, she could not. Dressing herself (she had no clothes garish enough to constitute a costume, but had made a wreath of flowers from the garden to wear as a crown), she covered her face with a wrapped scarf so that no dawdling neighbors would see her leave the house barefaced. This was permitted, indeed, resolutely necessary, as long as she removed it once she was away from her own home. She walked the empty streets for a few blocks. All the shops were closed except for the taverns, but even the taverns did no real business; everything was free, paid for by the church, and in each of the ale and wine houses you could find revelers dressed as monks and friars handing out libations; these, of course, were the Priests of Misrule, trusted with "guiding" the Hallowmas festivities. A great many of the people Portia passed were drunk, and even those who were not seemed surreally giddy, almost ecstatic, lost in some strange other world that existed only in their minds. This was, of course, expected.

Portia came to the bridge. It was a cool day, and bright. The public buildings were decorated with hanging vines, ripe gourds, cornstalks, and out-of-season flowers; Hallowmas was, above all, a fertility festival, an observation of the largesse of the gods. Here on the bridge, a great wooden idol in the shape of a sacred bull, hammered together from old planks and table legs and broken carts, was the centerpiece of the festivities. Surrounded by celebratory fires, the bull was the ultimate symbol of virility, and countless flagons of sacred wine were broken open against its horns, to the delight of the pious revelers.

Here Portia did away with her scarf, letting the harsh morning light scathe her naked cheeks. She uncoiled her hair from its braid as well, letting it hang free about her shoulders. A girl nearby, who a moment ago had been lost in divine ecstasy, gasped at the sight of Portia revealed, and indeed, her presence seemed to snap many out of their trance. Some of the bolder men made eyes at her, but she ignored them; marital indiscretions were hardly unheard of at Hallowmas, and indeed, they were almost considered holy rites in themselves, but she wanted nothing to do with these half-naked people and their lurid faces. Instead she went to the altar of the bull and picked up an empty chalice, letting a man dressed as a monk pour the sacred wine until it sloshed over the sides. She drank as much as she could in one go, and when her head spun and her knees went weak she allowed herself to fall.

To her surprise, someone caught her. Two strong hands supported her in her swoon and, half-leading and half-carrying, took her to the railing. She leaned on it, looking over the side and becoming somewhat lost in the churning blue waters below for a moment; the wine of the Priests of Misrule was particularly potent this year. Her mysterious rescuer fanned her until she was recouped, then showed her that he had rescued her cup as well. She thanked him for it with a mute whisper and, slowly this time, took a draught. The cold, cold wine soothed her insides. It was only now that she looked at the man who was with her, and when she did her breath caught in her throat; he was gorgeous! Portia had never seen an unmasked man so beautiful before.

The stranger was naked to the waist, and around his head was a crown of grapevines, and the vines trailed down his body. His fingers were stained with crushed grapes, and his skin was strangely dark, like someone who had spent long hours in the sun without covering of any kind. His hair was fair and his teeth were so white that when he smiled it almost blinded her. "May I share this cup?" he said. Portia stammered her consent, and he took the chalice from her; his fingers were very hot, and she trembled for a moment, spilling a few stray drops that ran over his fingers and onto hers. She wanted to stick those fingers in her mouth right then but she didn't. The strange man brought the cup to his lips, emptied it, and tossed it aside, letting it clamor on the stones of the street. Then he took both of her hands in his and held them up in a sign of thanks to the gods; Portia muttered a brief prayer along with him, but for once she was not thinking about the gods.

What am I doing, she thought as she let this stranger put his arm around her and walk with her across the span of the bridge. She could not take her eyes off of him. She should have been disgusted, should have felt sickened and repulsed by this man's shameful, unabashed physicality, but somehow this strange, nameless, divine man, was as beautiful as painted silk, even, as he was, unmasked and half-dressed. She felt a fire inside of her, a heat she thought long extinguished.

He pulled her aside, out of the thoroughfare and the mob. Her foot slipped just a little and she let herself fall against him, running her hands down his body as she did. She realized she was blushing, openly, nakedly blushing, but she didn't care. The strange man smiled some more and touched her cheek; she though it might burn his fingers it felt so hot. "I see you're very much in the spirit of the day," he said. Portia swallowed, realizing she hadn't said anything to him yet.

"To be honest," she said, "I don't think I've ever really understood the meaning of the Hallowmas carnival until now."

"I hear that so often," said the strange man. The reply made Portia feel merely common, but there was a gentleness about it that smoothed the rough edges away. Perhaps everyone was common next to a man like this? Without thinking, she almost asked his name, but closed her mouth at the last moment; even during a carnival there were limits to what was permitted. But the question seemed to linger, as if threatening to burst from her at any moment. To save herself, she stood as tall as she could, threw her arms around the strange man's neck, and kissed him.

She was terrified at first; she felt as if she were treading on a priest's robes. But the man, whoever he was, caught her up in his arms and pressed her to him, seeming to crush her like a grape in a press. Her heart leapt up and her head swam, and when the kiss was done she felt as if she'd bathed in sacred wine. She was not, she knew, really so drunk as she felt, but there was more to what was happening to her than just what went into the cups.

The stranger was pulling her aside, into an out-of-the-way garden at the edge of some estate, so open to the street and yet so tucked away and private that she had to guess it was designed for this very purpose. He pulled her in for another hot kiss and his strong hands ran up and down her body; Portia went weak in the knees but he held her up. She kissed the stranger again, and then she kissed his neck, and then she kissed the hard muscles and sinews of his chest, her wine-cooled lips gliding across his burning hot skin. And then she went lower…

Portia dropped to her knees, cushioned by the soft bed of grass and clover planted here. They were alone together, but of course, the garden was open, anyone at all could come in…but what did it matter? The stranger wore only loose white trousers, which she pulled down now, sliding them over his calves and knees. The sight of his prick, turgid and swollen, shocked her; she was used to quiet, respectful lovemaking in the dark, where such things remain partially hidden. To see it in broad daylight seemed unreal to her. She kissed it tentatively at first, unsure of herself, but soon she wrapped her mouth around the tip of the stranger's erection and, taking it slowly so as not to overwhelm herself, drew it in one inch at a time, letting her lips massage it on the way down. The stranger leaned against the garden wall, looking at her with half-lidded eyes. She went down until she choked and then eased off. The stranger brushed a strand of her hair off of her forehead. His fingers were strong but soft. She flushed all over.

Portia slid her tongue along the underside of his shaft, trailing wetness there, then slid it out of her mouth just far enough to tickle the head with the tip of her tongue. He seemed to enjoy that, or at least, to be amused by it, so she did it again, sliding her tongue around the ridge and teasing the spot behind it. His body radiated so much heat it was unreal. And what was that taste? She moved her mouth up and down on him again; the taste of his flesh was divine, a sweet and holy sensation that she could not place. She lapped at him, suddenly eager for more of it, and she opened her mouth wider, pushing him to the entrance of her throat, even allowing his fingers to fold themselves in her hair and push down, feeding himself to her. She moaned somewhere in her throat, sending the vibrations up and down him.

Portia was drifting away in the heat of the moment. A warm feeling of satisfaction started in her belly and spread through her body. Her mouth watered and she tried to pull even more of the stranger in, but there was nothing more, she had the entirety of him now, and she was feeling the essence of that sweet, drunken satisfaction that creates a greater need even as it gratifies. She heard, for a moment, footsteps on the stones behind her, and surprised voices, and even laughter, and opening her eyes for a moment she saw the stranger smile and wink, not at her but evidently at someone behind her. They were being watched. Perhaps there was even a crowd? She didn't care. She would not be interrupted. She wanted more. She had become single-minded in her pursuit of the stranger's flesh. She slid her hands up his taut thighs and around back, gripping his hips and all but forcing him, with as much power as her tiny body could summon, to go faster as he rocked back and forth, in and out of her gaping mouth.

His climax took her by surprise; he had given no indication, no verbalization, no change in his body language or breathing. But all of a sudden there was a sensation of pressure being released and then something wet and thick spreading across her tongue, filling her mouth. Portia's eyes snapped open, shocked, and for a second she had the urge to expel him, but she came to her senses fast and instead accepted it. The hot, wet flow spilled inside of her and she observed the gulping motion of her throat with a combination of fascination and horror. She imagined the stranger's seed mixing with the holy wine in her stomach. Is this the largesse of the gods too, she thought? And then she had to pull away because she was laughing, taken with a fit of merry madness.

All at once the stranger pulled her up again by her wrist, so fast that she nearly swooned again. She was gaping, red-faced, breathless, her knees shaking. The stranger smiled, stroking her cheek with the edge of one finger. "I hope you haven't worn yourself out already?" he said, "Come." He started to drag her along. She could barely keep one foot in front of the other.

"Come where?" she said, her words slurred.

"There are people you should meet," said the stranger. He was pulling her into a nearby prayer house, although by the sounds of things there was anything but prayer going on today. The statues and holy icons all had sheets and towels flung over their heads to symbolize the blindness of the gods' to humanity's actions today, and there were many half-empty casks of wine scattered about, and in the dark corners of the room there were many undressed people doing very many things that made Portia's insides quiver even as her head throbbed.

The stranger took her hand and presented it, very cordially, to a woman who was there, standing apart from the others, observing. This woman was pale but vibrant, with golden hair and long, exquisitely formed limbs. Her lips were such a deep red that they were almost purple, like the grapes that make the sacred wine. The stranger presented Portia's hand to this woman, who kissed it, in the manner of a gentleman. Portia's cheeks burned even brighter.

"I'd like you to meet my wife," said the stranger.

Portia's mouth fell open. "But you can't be here! Unmasked…you've seen each other!"

"So?" said the woman, still holding Portia's hand.

"But it's forbidden, a sin; it's monstrous!" Portia almost babbling now.

"According to whom?" said the stranger. He stood side by side with his wife now, both of them towering over Portia. "This is our house and we will decide what is sacred and what is profane. Who will tell us that it's wrong? You?"

"I—I—" said Portia. She felt confused, her head throbbing. She swayed on her feet again and both the stranger and his wife caught her.

"There, there," said the woman. They took her to a pew and sat her down. The woman began undressing Portia, who did not object. The feeling of her clothes gliding across her bare flesh was very gratifying. Her half-focused eyes fixated on three people in the corner who were very, very busy at something. Suddenly her vision was obscured by the stranger's wife, who leaned over Portia and kissed her with an open mouth. It was a fleeting thing, but Portia raised her head to chase after the woman's retreating lips when she moved away. The stranger swooped in and caught Portia's face in one hand, turning it toward him and giving her a matching kiss.

"I sense that you're feeling in the spirit of the season," said the stranger's wife. Portia nodded, since speaking was too difficult in her state. She was aware of the stranger's hands on her hips, guiding her into a dark corner of the room, and of the strange woman walking in front of her, beckoning her along. Suddenly Portia was in the midst of a mass of people, people half-glimpsed in the dark, a mass of writhing naked bodies and twining limbs. The stranger gave her a little push and almost sent her barreling into the midst of them, but someone (Portia had no idea who?) caught her and helped ease her down.

Portia lay on the floor, the tiles cool against her naked back. A sea of flesh moved around her and the air felt hot and still. She discovered another body pressed against hers, some anonymous woman lost in the drunken ecstasy of the moment, and when they came together (so soft, thought Portia) their lips joined in a long kiss. The nameless woman's hands moved up and down Portia's body, tracing the outline of her hips and her thighs, and Portia raked her fingers up the other woman's back, outlining in the curve of her spine. How remarkable, she thought, that this woman should be composed of all the same parts as I have, and yet we should look nothing alike. She set about testing the theory, examining, with her hot lips and soft hands, the various delicate parts of her unseen partner, tasting the slope of her neck and the angle of her shoulders, feeling the firmness and the ripeness of her breasts, testing the degree of her backside and the plane of her thighs. Portia anatomized the other woman one inch at a time, oblivious to their surroundings.

Suddenly, hands tugged at Portia's hair, and she was turned to greet another kissing mouth, another pair of exploring hands. A woman again, by the feel of her. Portia accepted the attention without complaint. Then she was pulled in a different direction and the hard, lean body of a man lay against her, his kisses hard and insistent. Someone else was behind her now and she felt the distinct throb of an erection against her backside. Strange hands pulled her hair again, arching her neck and back, pressing her breasts forward into the waiting molestation of the man in front of her. One of the women insinuated herself into the group, kissing her way up the exposed flank of Portia's thigh as she was pressed between the two men. None of these strangers, though, was the golden-haired couple who had brought Portia here; this she knew, because now and then she caught sight of them elsewhere in the shadows, always standing, always watching her, sometimes together and sometimes individually. But eventually she was buried underneath the huddle of competing bodies and lost sight of them entirely.

So many hands pulled at her, touched her, groped and fondled her; she felt pulled apart in every direction. She met lips on all sides too, too many to count or keep track of, too many mouths against her naked breasts or exposed neck or pale white shoulders. There were other intrusions on her too; a large hand snaked it way between her thighs, following them up, coming to the place where they met, and then strong fingers were massaging her naked sex. The throbbing feeling there spread out across her. Portia moaned and, with some difficulty because of the crowd, spread her legs. The weight of a body on top of hers took her breath away for a moment, but she had no time to catch it as the force of the unknown man's prick entering her made her chest heave and her knees shake. He propped himself over her on the tile floor and made quick business of pumping her soft, pliant body over and over again. Such a strange feeling, not like her husband at all—the unbidden memory of Cassius brought her back to herself for an instant, but the wine haze quickly swallowed her up again and she forgot him. She put her hands up and touched this anonymous man's face, feeling the lines of his cheeks and the bridge of his nose, trying to imagine what he might look like if she saw him more fully.

Her exploration was interrupted when one of the woman snaked her body across Portia's, kissing her and then direction Portia's open mouth to her small, soft breasts. Portia's tongue lapped at them, rubbing across the rubbery flesh of one nipple and listening to the tiny gasp catch in the other woman's throat. How remarkable that people's bodies could be operated so easily. Her own was responding with a rush of wetness down below, along with a contraction of muscles independent of her control. She kissed the other woman's flat stomach and hard thighs, then pushed her face between them, finding the other woman's wet sex and caressing it with her tongue. Portia couldn't help but compare it to her own.

And then she wondered, would this man, who was frantically making love to her in the dark as if his life depended on never suspending his pace, even know the difference between her and this other woman? Would he be able to feel it? She decided to find out. She pushed the both of them off of her; there was some difficulty in this, but when she used her nails it finally got a response. Then, standing on wobbly legs, she pushed the two of them together; it was childishly simple to maneuver them against one another, and soon Portia could see, dimly, in the shadows, their frantic coupling, neither of them missing a beat.

Strong hands grabbed at her again as some other man seized her and bent her over. She offered no resistance, and he began taking her from behind, grunting and moaning in the dark. Portia braced her hands against the wall and pushed back against him, feeling the hard bones of his hips bouncing off her body. Spikes of heat radiating through her every time he penetrated. When he finished after a few minutes of artless but ardent rutting he was almost immediately replaced by someone else, and it began again, and Portia, robbed of her senses, could not tell the difference between them, nor between any of the other line of faceless, nameless, meaningless men who used her body, one after another, nor between the equally indistinguishable women who pleasured and took pleasure with her. They were bodies in the dark, willing and eager flesh, a banquet of touch and taste. Portia took greedy mouthfuls of each meal, wondering how alike her own flesh was to theirs; did they know her? Was she as faceless to them as they were to her, or was she somehow special, remarkable, noteworthy, even here, even now? Would she be remembered? Would she know? She had no way to be sure.

Eventually the others dropped away, exhausted, bored, drunk. Portia was wrung-out and spent, but something about the burning ache of the wine wouldn't let her rest. People slept in two and threes on the floor around her and she picked her way between them. Finding one man still alert and at attention, she went to all fours in front of him and sucked his prick in the dark until he contributed to the growing communion in her body, and then he too fell away, uselessly slumbering. Portia groped her way across the floor, blind and helpless, until familiar hands found her; her strange host and his equally strange wife, still here or perhaps returned from an absence, had come to retrieve her. They stood her up, cleaned her off as best they could, covered her with some bare semblance of modesty, and helped take her from the house.

"Have you been enjoying your rites today?" said the strange man.

"Mmm, yes…" Portia said.

"We have more for you," said the strange woman, as they bore her along between them. More, thought Portia? What else could there possibly be? The sun was getting low. Portia eventually found her feet and began to walk of her own accord, staying between the couple, comfortable in their presence now, indeed, thirsty for it. She slipped an arm around each of their waists, and accepted theirs in return. Ah, now here were bodies she could distinguish, bodies that, even in the dark, she would never forget nor mistake for anyone else's. She became fascinated by the movement of their legs, particularly the way their ankles flexed. For some time she was so distracted by this that she didn't pay any attention to where they were going. Only when she saw the cathedral spires did her feet drag.

"We're going there?" she said.

"Where else on this most sacred day?" said the woman.

"But it's forbidden!" said Portia.

"You say that so often," said the stranger. They approached the gilded gates.

"We can't get in," Portia insisted, "there's no one there." But no sooner did she say it than the gates creaked open. The stranger and his wife entered, greeted formally by whoever was admitting them. When Portia, after a moment's hesitation, followed, she was stunned to see Father Marlowe. Yes, Father Marlowe, in his robes and wearing his mask, against all custom and holy law, wearing a mask on Hallowmas! Portia gasped, as did he when he saw her.

"Portia!" he said. "But what are you doing here child? No, not you, not you of all—"

"I followed them," said Portia. "They insisted that—wait, how did you know me? How do you know my face?"

Father Marlowe seemed about to answer but the stranger gave him a dark look, and he bowed his head. "Well," he muttered, "you are here. There is nothing to be done about it now. Come along."

He led them into the cathedral. Portia was at a loss to keep up, and she had no idea what was going on. It wasn't just the wine now, in fact she felt almost completely sober again. The high arches of the cathedral, always so comforting to her, seemed dark and sinister now. She tried to stay close to Father Marlowe, although in truth his presence was disturbing. How could a priest of all people dare to wear his mask today? And yet the strange couple did not seem bothered by it. Portia began to feel ill; who were these people? How could they so casually stomach such unspeakable sins? Even on Hallowmas there were lines that should never be crossed. She wanted to ask Father Marlowe, but he made a sign for silence, and his eyes behind his mask seemed desperate and pleading.

To Portia's surprise, the sanctuary was full of lights and people; no, she realized, not people at all, merely a line of dressing dummies wearing priest's robes and sacred golden masks in the likeness of bulls, a convocation of masks without faces behind them. Ceremonial torches burned on all sides, and the smell of incense filled the air. What in the world was going on? She followed Father Marlowe and he followed the strange couple, and up to the altar they all went, but here Father Marlowe warned her back. He made suppliant gestures to the couple, who stood at the very utmost of the altar.

"We greet you today, most holy and divine of personages," said Father Marlowe. The stranger smiled a little; his wife was impassive. "And we greet the witness you've brought." Portia started a little when she realized he was talking about her. "In your name, in your honor, shall we initiate the sacrifice?"

The stranger was about to speak but his wife cut him off: "Let her do it," she said. Again, Portia knew they were talking about her, and a hard feeling formed in the pit of her stomach, though she could not imagine what "it" could be. Father Marlowe paused for only a fraction of a second.

"Of course, my lady," he said.

He went to Portia; she stood face to face with the priest, and his eyes looked sad. Portia had no idea what was expected of her. He patted her hand once, reassuring her, and then he turned away and, to her horror, removed his mask, dropping it. Then he shed his robe as well, and for a moment Portia felt as if she were going blind, or perhaps that the world was going out of focus, and when the moment passed Father Marlowe was gone and where he had been, and indeed, still standing over the remains of his robes and mask, was a sacred white bull, lowing and snorting. It was huge and vibrant and alive; in the torchlight she saw sweat dappling its flanks, and when it turned to her its breath warmed her skin. Is it real, Portia thought, half wanting to touch it but half afraid to as well.

Then the stranger and his wife came to her, he guiding her forward and she placing a dagger in Portia's hand. The bull did not seem afraid, indeed, it took a few steps toward her, a friendly gesture, almost. It wasn't until the act was already done that Portia realized that, in one swift motion, she had cut the bull's throat; her hands had moved entirely of their own accord. She gasped and dropped the knife, but though a red stain spread across the great bull's white hide and its blood flowed over the tiled floor the animal did not cry out, did not stagger, did not fall. It stood calm, peaceful, letting its blood flow in streams, making no sign of pain. The stranger knelt, catching some of the blood in a sacred chalice. Portia shook her head, feeling ill. "What's going on?" she said, but the stranger hushed her.

Minutes passed and the stream of blood diminished to a dribble, but somehow the bull still lived. It shook its ears and flicked its tail, and that was all. The stranger put one bronzed hand on the bull's flank and his wife touched it on the forehead, and then the huge animal turned and trotted away, heading toward the altar, and then the world went out of focus again and the beast was gone, vanished, and if not for the blood on the floor Portia would not have believed it had been there in the first place.

"What…what was that?" she said.

"A farewell to the flesh," said the stranger. "Now Hallowmas is done; the most sacred rite has been observed, and you are our witness."

"Not yet," said the woman. She took the blood-filled chalice and, from the altar, retrieved a flagon of wine, which she mixed with the blood in the cup. Then she presented the cup to Portia. "Drink." It was not a request. Portia gagged, shaking her head, but the woman pushed the cup forward. "Drink!" she said again. "It's important. It's the covenant."

"But why?" said Portia. "What does it mean? What's going on here? Who are you?"

"Don't you know?" said the stranger. "Isn't it obvious who we are?"

Portia began to cry. The woman pushed the cup to her lips, almost choking her, and she drank; the concoction had an acrid, biting taste, and it burned her throat, but she drank. The alcoholic haze overtook her again, and she did not resist as the stranger carried her to the altar, laying her naked body across it, and the two stood over her, the man on one side, the woman on the other, hands joined over her. "Now it's done," said one of them (she could not tell which). "The flesh has been affirmed. Humanity's revels are ended."

Portia saw the masks of the gods on the walls; worse, she knew that they saw her. She wanted to cry out but no words came.

"Accept us back into the world now. Accept us into your hearts, your minds, and your bodies."

Portia was burning up inside; her limbs were on fire.

"Accept us," said the man, kissing her.

"Accept us," repeated the woman, kissing her again. Portia's lips burned with divine fire. Her body was floating away, or perhaps was being consumed. The stranger, she realized, was on top of her now, taking her across the altar, right there in front of the eyes of the gods, and his wife was leaning over, presenting her breasts to Portia's mouth, and Portia's skin burned, and her body became lighter and lighter, until it seemed she was not there at all. In the midst of her delirium, she thought she saw the images of the gods remove their masks. She thought she saw the naked faces of the gods. And—how horrifying to realize!—she saw that they looked just like anyone else.

In the final moments of Hallowmas, Portia could no longer tell mortals and gods apart. She couldn't bear it. So instead, she slept.


She woke the next day in her own home again; she did not remember coming back, indeed, did not remember anything after that moment on the altar. And how much of what happened there was memory and how much simply a mad dream? She did not know. She thought she might never know.

She was sore all over, and her hands were still stained with wine; wine, and perhaps something else. She tried to wipe them on her bedclothes before realizing what she was doing. She dressed herself with aching limbs, pausing only briefly before putting her mask on. It settled against her face, and when she opened her eyes everything about the world seemed to make sense again. Yes, everything was all right.

She went to the east sitting room, where the family was already awake and waiting for her. Cassius embraced her, setting his brow against hers, while Octavia chattered with bright greetings and Alexander, at his books as always, gave her a nod. It was a beautiful day outside, and the entire city was rising to greet the open air and the bright sun; with Hallowmas come and gone they had their entire lives to get back to.

"Good morning, Mummy," said Octavia.

"Good morning, Mother," said Alexander.

"Good morning, darlings," said Portia. She frowned; was there something wrong with her voice? It seemed to echo inside her mask. If so, no one else noticed. Cassius sat with her on a couch, talking about dinner with the count that evening; Portia found herself staring at Cassius' bare hands, comparing them to those of the stranger, even to those of the stranger's wife.

The stranger…

She was seized with a kind of spasm, almost a seizure, at the memory of that bizarre, blasphemous couple. She wondered who they were, where they were today, what they were doing, and the thought set a ringing in her mind, as if the bells of every church had split. Cassius did not seem to notice anything was wrong. He kept talking: "Did you know," he said, "Father Marlowe died yesterday."

"He did?" said Alexander.

"Oh yes. In his sleep, in the sanctuary, apparently. They found him this morning. Quite a thing, dying on a holy day. Seems appropriate. I wonder how we'll ever replace him. Anybody who came along would think—"

Octavia noticed first; her screams alerted the others. They all started, then looked at Portia, and then cried out as well. Cassius tried to look away, but it was too late. Octavia would not stop screaming, and eventually she took a needle from her mother's sewing basket and, in a fit, tried to blind herself, but Alexander stepped in to save her. In the end it didn't matter; what they had seen could not be unseen.

Portia had taken her mask off. Right there, in front of everyone, taken it off and broken it into pieces, and now the pieces were sifting through her fingers, falling away, going to dust, and then even the dust was gone. She looked at her husband and children with her naked face for the first time. "Accept us," she remembered the strangers saying. "Accept us," they'd said, again and again.

Cassius took her by her shoulders, shaking her, trying to get her to speak, trying to reason with her. Alexander shielded Octavia's view of the room, hugging her, trying to comfort her. Portia said nothing. Minutes passed before Cassius could get her to say anything, and when she did all she said was: "Accept us. Accept us." He stared, helpless, horrified, not understanding. But Portia was too far gone to explain.

When she opened her eyes she did not see her family anymore; without her mask on, she saw the faces of gods. And the gods saw her. And it was good.